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somewhereouther
Jan. 16th, 2007
06:57 pm - I don't know it's been so long
I know it's been a ridiculously long time since I last posted but a lot has happened, including getting a new job. Doing so has just changed my outlook on life, as you know alot of my previous entries have been on the darker side of life. Not only has the financial part of life changed, but emtionally and for my self esteem it has done alot to bolster the two areas. Before I was beginning to wonder if my degree was going to get me anywhere, and whether or not I was hireable or desirable to be hired.(Mouth full eh?). This isn't to say that there are not still some recurring issues in my thought and personal life, but you know, having more dough sure does help. The job is at a publication that is well circulated in a certain part of the country and is paying me more than what were my expectations of an entry level position. Recieving insurance and a raise in the first couple of months are a great bonus as well. Getting out of fastfood hell after longer than anyone should have to be there it has done wonders to boost my spirits.I was recently there to get a family member a sandwhich and was jokingly asked if I wanted my old job back. The answer was of course(but only different in person) a resounding "HELL NO!". The manager would gladly take me back because of experience and also for the fact I was the only one who wouldn't argue with him over trivial issues and the fact he thought he had a good relationship friendwise with me, which was mainly b/c of me being a polite person and never wanting to make someone feel bad. But the fact was and still remains he was someone who thrived on attention and making people feel sorry for him, which made people want to distance themselves from him, and personally disgusted me and made it a difficult environment in which to work. He was not a really harsh boss, but the double standards he helled for different employees and himself were at certain times hard to cope with. Enough of the past.
The new job has brought its own set of challenges and took five weeks of training, but it was well worth it. Not to say that it doesn't get boring, but at least it challenges my mind. Learned alot about myself in the process too. The time has come for me to say goodbye for now, but there will be future posts sooner than the last interval. The only thing I can't promise is when, you know, just when there is something deemed postworthy by me. Happy Trails! Wishing all my friends a good day! (PS Tuesday has been a good day this winter because it has been short due to slowing of work, would be nice to have the cash, but you know)
Adios for now.
Sep. 13th, 2006
02:06 pm - Just more stuff
Ok, its been a few weeks so it's time to update stuff about my life and possibly a bit about others lol. A few things have happened in the past few weeks, I've been doing that online course for that cash flow note thing, sometimes reluctantly, but since I started it I'm going to see it through to the end, having already put too much time and money into it. So we'll just see how it goes.In other news, a newspaper company called me a week ago to tell me about a position they have open in the proof reading department for one of their publications.It had been a little over two months since they interviewed me for the last position they had open, but a former employee had moved back into the area and obviously had experience over me so he got the position.They talked to me again this morning, and it went reasonably well, but they said the ultimate decision is made by their head boss.I was their last interview for the position.If the job is given to someone else, it will be just another notch in my belt.It will however be a bit of a downer, and leave more questions than answers.Having written so many papers and doing countless projects involving much writing a proof reading position would be a perfect fit it seems.But only God knows what a perfect fit would be for anyone.What appears in our minds to be what we want and need at that current time, is often not at all close to what we should be, and eventually will be with a little prodding doing with our lives.Such is the case for everyone, even if they think they are all in control of their lives, those people are sadly mistaken to think that they can control completely every aspect of their lives.That my friends, is left up to Jehova Jireh.Nothing is more worth living for than Him, and the place that he resides and has a place for those that follow him.
If the previous paragraph about God offended anyone, it's tough luck.There is too much evidence for a living God, one that is not only in charge, but also cares deeply.For some reason, that was on my heart and it would be almost detrimental if I hadn't shared it.Can't ignore that still small voice.The past few weeks have had me re-evaluating my life, it's priorties and what really matters.My walk with Christ has been anything but stable, more like a nacious rollercoaster ride, with me and my stupid decisions being responsible for the "nacious" part of it. Too much wasted time doing meaningless things, but for some reason God has been pointing out things to me at this point, showing me the changes that need to happen for me not to spiral into the gutter of life.I'll leave it at that.
Too all my friends who care about me, I care about you too deeply. It's only you who keep me from slipping into too much of a depression. You all know how tough life is and can be, without friends it would be too unbearable.Having something to look forward to really helps break up the monotony of the depressing and often shady life that surrounds us.The world isn't all bad, just some things and people in it, but unfortunately that must be the case in order for certain neccessary things to come to pass.My writing time is up now, so when something more relevant happens that feels neccessary to post about happens, then it will be done, ok? :) Peace to all y'all!
Aug. 31st, 2006
05:51 pm - Som're stuff
It's been a while so it's time for an update.Since the last time I posted a few things have happened, not too terribly interesting, but alas, something to post about. My involvement in the "Winning in the cash flow business" has somewhat deepened.Last night I received a call about possibly becoming a member of "The winners circle" an exclusive group of a about 32 people who are serious about the business.It was somewhat flattering to be given an interview to see if I should be a member of this group with its rights and privileges, such as elimination of some of the trial and error, and working with coaches to help me along.I still have a sense of cautiousness and am taking things slowly with a grain of salt.Potentially this "note finding business" could generate a significant amount of income for me, but there is a question of "How much would I lose in taxes and what is the ultimate gain?" After talking through some goals I have for getting involved in this, they said I was an excellent candidate, and driven, which is what they want, someone who is not just going to use this for material gain, simply for self gratification.My goals were to pay off my college debt, not having to just scrape by, and helping my parents out with bills, as well as taking them on some much deserved and much awaited for vacations.There are many inner battles I keep having with myself as to the validity of this business and how much success I will have in persuing it.Only time will tell.It only involves about 6-10 hrs a week which is not unreasonable,even with my packed schedule, but still will take time. But I guess the only things worth much do take much time.
As for other news, I applied for a pharmacy technician position online for a CVS.That was the only way they were accepting apps for that position.Not sure of my chances though with the probably many apps that are being submitted.For things other than my work and financial life, I'm excited about this years Bears team, and seeing if the Hoosiers can possibly have a winning season in football. They do have an excellent coach who brought up Ben Rothlisburger, but the MAC is much different from the Big-10.Just have to wait and see as usual, hopefully not having to suffer through a six game losing streak at the end after starting 4-1 like last year.The Bears should win the north again if they have at least a little better semblance of the non-exsistant offense of last year, save Thomas Jones, who is dreadfully underrated.The line and him were the heroes of the offense last year, case closed.Time once again to end my rant, and say peace, love, happiness, happy trails, and goodbye till next time.Btw the WhiteSox lost to the Devil Rays today and I'm loving every minute of it lol!
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calmAug. 23rd, 2006
02:23 pm - Just the yoos
No more stuff about you know who anymore, Thank God, unless of course something happens I deem worthy enough to write about.I recieved an e-mail from an insurance company who said they found my resume online and thought me a good candidate or "outstanding" as they put it, lol, for a position within their company.It's worth a shot, so after clicking on the link it said they would contact me, and included a number as well.The only thing is that the company is located in Texas, so I hope they have a branch near here because Texas is not on the high list of places to live, that's just me though, don't want to arouse any "Don't mess with Texas" crap or "Everythings bigger and better there"*rolls eyes and makes a face saying 'who really gives a crap?*. It was a very tempting offer they were showing, especially to a desperate person.Just hoping it's not too good to be true "Can't take my eyes off you, you'd be like heaven to touch, just want to hold you so much" lol, wow did I get carried away?rofl! Ok, it might not be that funny but it is a little. Enough with my weird sense of humor.Though they are the only ones who actually sent me a personal e-mail so, they must be near the top of my list for actually contacting me and giving me the compliments they did in the e-mail.Was funny though when I opened it and it said it was from a guy with the Last name Gore! Especially growing up where I'm at and it being a very staunch Republican stronghold.
On another note, this might invoke some laughter and humor as well.For some reason, let me back up a bit.Ok I've been trying different phone datelines(no not phone tramp lines) just seeing who might respond to my ad, it has become very apparant to me, that at least in this area, many older women use the line, in fact more so than females near my age.I have no problem with this except the fact that they are the only ones who seem to be sending me the majority of messages, or even "kisses" as they say on the line. The younger women who contact me (ones in my age range) all seem to have kids and want things that are next to impossible for me to provide at this present time such as alot of money, someone who looks like a model(even when they most likely don't) and drives a big bad car, and someone who can spend everywaking moment with them (which brings up the question:do they want a man who will maybe if things go right eventually provide for them and treat them well, or do they want a lazy ass son of a bitch who's a thug and will eventually pound their face in a drunken rage and be a worthless hustler for the rest of their lives till they get their face bashed in when they messed with the wrong lowlife and end up in prison?" That might sound extreme but it's what it boils down to in many cases.I will now get off my soapbox ok lol? Allright that is not the case %100 percent of the time, but it has made me just want to give up the search altogether.Might as well be "A bachelor till the rapture" as one of my old highschool classmates asked me one day we were at a mutual friends house some years back.
Now that that's off my chest, it's time for me to say goodbye for the day.Hope I didn't offend anyone too badly, but this blog is not meant for political correctness.Just me venting myself, expressing, and representin' ok, that might be pushing it a bit, but in any event it's all about my perspective.So, happy trails until next post :)
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boredAug. 21st, 2006
02:49 pm - A night at the movies...well sort of
Here's more work related junk.Well, the meeting never really happened.She decided not to show up, so it was just the manager and the district manager, but I guess that owning up to her lies was as good as gold.On my bday my friend and I, whom I will keep in anonymity as I do anyone close to me so as to keep them safe, went to the local cinema at night, for which he paid4 cause it was my day.Thank you so much man, you know who you are!(thanks for the turnover too)Anyways we saw that "Descent"movie good little suspense/horror flick(our fave right dude?lol).The real catch was after the movie, something happened a little like a horror movie, as we were walking out of the theatre, to my dreaded horror we see the object of my consternation, you know who coming in with her boyfriend to see the late show.She was all like "Hiii (keeping my name anonymous too), "Did (the manager) tell you I had a new job?It's better than that one!"After which I ignored and headed off with my friend to his car.My friend was like"Happy birthday to you right?"And I was like "Yeah, why did I have to see her tonite?"lol.
Saw this thing on tv this morning about "Cash Flow Notes"Thinking about trying it out, looks alot less complex than realstate, and can make some quick cash.I know what your thinking(No a get rich quick scheme looks as suspicious to me as it does too you)But anyway it looks good and simple enough so meessa is going to try it.Just desperate to ease my way out of my current job, as well as help my mom and pops out, and just have more financial freedom overall, which leads to freedom in other areas.Thats the news for now, so yeah, now it is time to check the monster and my hits to see if anything looks good or reasonable.See you later my loyal peeps and other happeners upon my writings! Adios, ciao
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contemplativeAug. 18th, 2006
02:16 pm - More updates on the workplace drama
Ok, here's the latest, man would my boss be all over me if he found this out lol! Anyways, my manager comes up to me and says "Here's the latest".The distric manager, him, and the trouble maker are going to have a meeting sometime today.The good news is that she will sign a paper saying that she lied about a number of things related to the supposed harrasment that apparantly made her want to leave in the first place, and that her conduct was uncouth and uncalled for. The bad news is that not only she wants her job back after thinking she had another job all ligned up, but that also from what my manager told me, that the district wants him to hire her back!At least the legalities are out of the way right?It would be a very tense workplace if she returned, and if she didn't change her ways, at least some, her mouth would get her in more trouble.The bad thing is she can be very flirtatious,(which is a main reason my manager said at first he liked her because the male customers liked the way she played along)(and lead people on, as she did my coworkers grandson(not the same as the one in the first entry), and then turn around and call it harrasment when he calls her and asks her out!Something funny, with her you cant tell, but she would go around at times saying "I have issues" in a joking manner.Wouldn't be surprised is she did have real inner issues.Thus concludes the latest chapter.
As far as me? Well, still looking for a new job, preferably one is something related to my degree, but I'm not so fixated on it not to consider anything else to escape the fastfood hell.I literally felt like passing out last night after my split, legs felt tingly, hard lack of energy.Also this morning during the lunch hour, being stressed out from the previous day, felt like a heart attack was about to strike me.Just too much stress at that place, having all that responsibility on me, not that I can't handle my crap, just that my boss relies on me too heavily like a work horse, and I feel like a slave to that store,because of the way my boss has become too dependent upon me, and basically has me by the neck.Feel like just storming out and saying forget it, and just living off my savings till I find another job, even the dreaded "Walmart" word sounds good now.Ugghhh! Well that's all for now, later yo.
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stressedAug. 17th, 2006
03:44 pm - A little more drama
Well, I have a few minutes left on my library session so I thought I'd do a little updating.First things first, Cassy decides to come in and get her check, BUT, not before she calls and makes sure the head manager wasn't there.Hardy, har, har. Now it seems she only had an interview, not a guaranteed job.To top that off, the little winch wants to get her job back, and is claiming sexual harassmant against the manager!She has some kind of friekin nerve! She was always spouting something dirty off to all of us, and bumping into everybody, practically grinding against them, including me, and asking VERY, innapropriate questions and making comments just as bad.Now she has the nerve to want her job back?!!There's some more but no time to post it. Will definitely keep you guys updated on the saga.Got some hits on monster.com, but as usual they all want experience and they're all far away, not that I'm not willing to move, but the experience part is the big deal.Someday, that's what I keep telling myself, Someday. Well time to take off, so later friends, cohorts, and peeps, and general internet surfers!
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blahAug. 15th, 2006
05:04 pm - Stupid b**** and unclassy peeps, and various
It's been a few days so thought I'd update as much as I can.To be honest the past few days haven't been so bad, could be worse, still stuck in the same fastfood rut with a college education after a year and a few months(go figure).Hoping that a resume I put on monster will acrew some hits, meanwhile it's a just a matter of hanging tough.I figure if the Cubs haven't won a world series since 1908 and haven't been to one since 1945, and the Bears haven't won a superbowl since 1986 my neverchanging job status isn't so bad lol!Today at work one of my coworkers, well let me just state her name Cassandra, like it means much anyway except to those of us employed there, decided not to finish out her last week before she started a new job, didn't show up, didn't call, had to track down her boyfriend and our assistant manager to see what was up and was that a trip! One of my older coworkers who has been with the company for like 40 some years, and just works there to get by until retirement, called up her grandson who happened to be working with the aforementioned Cassandra and the assistant manager and asked him "Did anything happen that would have angred someone not to show up this morning?" to which he replied "No she was in a real good mood last nigt".Mmmmhhhmmmm...I WONDER WHY?Could it possibly be that she was releshing in the thought of getting out of that hole, leaving in behind forever?No doubt I will when that time comes, but unlike her I will be classy and not just stick it to the rest of my coworkers to whom I owe the respect and dignity of doing my job and seeing it through till the end.If she shows up to get her last check I'll be suprised, but maybe not knowing the crazy and very outspoken person that she is.
Just thought I'd share that insight.A friend sent me a possible job lead, she lives downstate and didn't know the position was for up here.At any rate I thanked her for it and also her reccomendation of me as a good candidate to the person in charge. However when I checked it, it was not listed anymore on the site.For those of you who know me, just my luck right?Not that my whole life is full of inconceivable woes, but just that the job market has just never quite shifted my way or shown its bright smiling face, if it has one that is.Oh well eh? Life is tough and I've learned to deal with it, but will never sucuumb to it. At any rate I had a decent weekend, my bday is next weekened and I'm going to a restaraunt 60miles away that my parents took me to many times as a child.They have the awesomest buffet and real good chop steak!YUMMY!!!!LOL. My Cubs won too against the Colorado Rockies, salvaging at least a game in the series. Rookie heroes all the way! Although the rookie pitcher didn't help his cause by giving up a grandslam after his team scored 4 runs to give him the lead, but it's a bit like life, we get the lead, think we have control of the reigns, and then bam!The other team snags away what we thought was at least mostly ours.To leave on a high note, at least I'm still fairly young and have a long life to live, hopefully, and the odds will catch up with me and things will change.Until next time adios, orevior(sp?) you soon!Good day:)
restlessAug. 9th, 2006
03:35 pm - A day is what you make of it, or not...
Well this is my very first post on here.Kinda cool to be able to post my thoughts and feelings on the web, but also a little freaky at the supposition that many others will be able to read it.At any rate it will be cool to meet people on here through livejournal and just let my mind flush and gush out whatevers on it.I now must leave because of time constraints but you can rest assured that I shall return at an undetermined later date(hopefully in the next day or so) and update whoever comes across this as to the happenings of my experiences in the great and often painful game of life! Ciao for now friends! :)